Life...what happens while we're waiting for the moments that never come.

I don't want that to be apt for me. It's been being apt...but I don't want it to continue. A better way of saying what I want, I guess. Anyway, I want to create a life full of the moments that I've invited, been taken by surprise by and managed to create my own experience within, that I've endured & conquered, grown stronger through, learned from...I want life to be on my terms again.

Life is so brilliant in its complexity (I've been thinking about complexity...). It's a never ending train of possibility and heartache and all of the things in-between. Until it does end. No one gets out alive. I'd like for that moment to be on my terms as well, but since it won't be, I'd like to get back to not fearing it. 

We're all waiting. Hoping. Needing. Giving. Losing. Loving. Being scared of love. But we control so much more than we know...and sometimes what we're waiting on is right here in front of us. Soft eyes...I'm trying to develop soft eyes.

The workout today was hard...haven't been in the gym for a minute and I've softened up/gained weight with the new round of HRT (Hormone Replacement Therapy) and it's strength, and since I was supposed to be taking it easy after my procedures at the end of last month, and was surprised by how quickly so much strength and conditioning was lost. But, I did it...and I kept up, so I'm taking steps in the right direction. I've decided to be So Focused, Man. 

My new mission for the 08...Get It Right Get It Tight. My new motto...Come correct or don't cum at all. 

This is My Year! ... And yay for that! 

And here's some photos from recently...